Sometimes I wish real life was like Hollywood. Not the movies, just like celebrity life. I wish I could check into the hospital for "exhaustion" just so I could get away from my life for a few days, weeks, whatever. Just until I felt like going back.
I am so tired.
Tired of doing everything.
Tired of being nagged.
Tired of putting the baby to bed and being expected to hop right on the housework instead of allowing myself some time to eat or relax.
Tired of putting everyone's needs in front of my own, especially when I need to eat right to gain weight for this baby, when all I have done is lost it.
I just want to go lay down somewhere, where people will take care of ME. Where no one will call me lazy for wanting to lay down. Where people will ask me how I feel. Where people will notice when I feel down. Where I won't have to fake it.
I'm not a lazy piece of shit. I'm not any of those things. I'm just a little stressed out. No, I don't get stressed too easily, I am just overworked and underappreciated.
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You need a pillow, a bag of oreos, and a chick flick, STAT. Seriously. Get a babysitter and have some YOU time woman!!
ReplyDeleteI totally relate.
ReplyDeletehey...
ReplyDeletei've known you for a bit on the nest... in fact, we were pregnant at the same time. my little one is 8 months right now and we found out we're pregnant again. i've been going through all the same stuff you've been blogging about. thanks for sharing everything... at least i know i'm not alone. :)
I totally wish I lived near you. I'd watch S and let you relax all day long.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you have to deal with that crap. Try and take it easy as best you can and sleep whenever you get the chance.
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